oh, dear...

I'm not really a person who talks and talks so i don't know if this "blogging" thing would work for me. I am more of the "question-and-answer" type..You know, you ask a question, then i'll answer. Although I consider myself as a "thinker", I never put my thoughts into words most of the time. But I always liked to try. So here goes nothing...
I was named Joan Clare Jane delos Reyes Gutierrez. My mother, Clarita delos Reyes-Gutierrez, who was a fashion and interior designer when she was still alive, probably knew she would not live long enough to have more children so she gave me all 3 names she would give her girls. She died when I was just five months old. My father is Jaime S. Gutierrez, Jimmy to some and Diko to most..He is the greatest artist I've ever known. I used to go up to his room when I was still a kid and I would find fascinating objects he made himself. I remember this wild fabric he used to cover the seat of an old chair that he painted electric blue. The fabric was stenciled with little faces of him in different vibrant colors...My first exposure to pop art!
I have always wanted to be an artist. I liked to draw when I was a kid and I would often get good reviews from my family. My first paint set was from my Tita Joyce, she got it when she went to the US for a dental convention. It was a Crayola. I got it because I got good grades in school. It was heaven, the smell of fresh crayons and poster paints! From that day on, I learned to value my time alone. And until now, I get excited when I open a new box of crayons for Jakey.
Now that I am married & blessed with a smart 3 year old son, I don't feel like I can still draw. I don't want to think that I've lost it coz I'll be devastated. It's just that a lot has happened while I was living my life. Something probably went wrong but I can't figure out what it is. It was hard. It IS hard.
Right now, while I'm still clueless, I make myself busy designing party invitations. I use Adobe...Not crayons, not poster paints...Not my hands. But thank God, I still have the "eye". Maybe I should just start drawing again when I have the time. Maybe I could come up with something nice.